She's Jess: Expressionism works, not impressionism.

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I am not able to answer both my questions and confusions that are bubbling in my mind.

I am hurt by betrayal, lies and back- stabbing.

I love to be loved and appreciated by people around me.

I hate the feeling of being worried and being alone.

I fear loss of the people I keep nearest to my heart, failure, rejection and when the night approaches the day.

I hope that I will be successful one day and be contented with my life.

I crave for unconditional love.

I regret making past mistakes and failures in life.

I cry when I've been torn and when I miss someone dearly.

I always think of the past, the current life and the future life of mine.

I long for true love, laughter and happiness in life.

I feel alone when the night comes and being left out.

I listen to my heartbeat and instincts.

I hide when I am depressed and sad.

I sing in my heart whenever I feel everything is right with myself.

I dance because it's a constant wheel of motion that sets beauty in my soul.

I write when i need to get something off my mind and when I am requested to write.

I breathe the air around me and the love that I've got showered from the people around me.

I pretend when I am sad to let others know that I am okay.

I miss the peoples and memories that I've left behind in the past chapter of my life.

I search for my true identity, the meaning to being with someone I love and success.

I learn from past mistakes, from experiences and failures to become a better person.

I feel frustrated and tired with my life.

I know I must try my best to do well in my exams and make use of my brain in order for me to be succeed in the future.

I say words to motivate and to help others but not to my ownself.

I succeed in making lots of friends but not much of true friends.

I fail being suspicious and thinking non stop, making people around me worry about myself.

I dream of the pure simplicity of being happy in life.

I wonder why the heart can so easily be broken, divided in two, kept, given away, and found?

I want to be a successful person in life and I will!

I worry being left behind by the one I love and failures in life.

I wish I could learn to trust more, not be so scared of love and be confident with myself.

I have realized that life is all about challenges and uncertainties.

I give up a share of my own happiness just to see someone who's sad, smile again, give my shoulder for someone to cry on.

I fight for my own rights, my stand and for what I believe is worth battling.

I need love, trust, happiness, guidances, and companion of friends and relatives.

I think I will be success if I can manage to go through all the challenges and failures in life.

I will keep searching for answers in life no matter how long it takes.

now, you should understand me better :)

She's Jess
Sunday, January 01, 2006 11:39 PM
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I am Jesslyn. have been living in kuala Lumpur since the 6th of february in some years ago. still growing up and struggling with life. embracing my very own life now, so mess not with me, interfere not with me. overall, i am just nothing to be precise. oh, I love ian dearly. just one thing you got to remember always.

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